Thursday, August 9, 2007

Depression

Well I realize that in the last blog I had the title of the song wrong. Sorry, the lyrics are right though. Well last night was the last time 2 of my friends would perform in our youth group. Just about everybody cried whether it be before, during, or after. It was sad. The girl that is leaving was really an inspiration to me(whether she knows it or not). We've only been close friends for a couple of months but it still makes me sad that she is leaving. Then the guy that is leaving well he's just funny. I've known him for ages! I'll miss him to! But I had been praying that the Lord would help me to not be selfish & to be happy for them. To realize that they now get to take what they learned & put into practice. I was thinking last night about everything that has happened here lately & made a promise with God not to be depressd & not to dwell on what's happened but to look forward to what is going to happen. Like them coming home.

I wonder what I'm going to be like next year. When my close personal friends leave. Then I think about all the good times I've had with them & I start thinking about next summer. I can see this whole school year flash before my eyes to next summer. But then I think of Phil. 4:13 "I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength" That verse is really proving true to itself. It is definitly a good one to know.

Friday, August 3, 2007

Last Day

Well I needed a place to express my thoughts. So I found this.

Well lately I haven't had much time to myself or for God. My relationship with him is not what it used to be. That makes me so mad but I never really had time. That's what I thought until I realized I just don't want to give up the internet. Isn't that selfish when you won't even give up your internet time for God. Well I had always blamed the internet thing on my job. I never had time for the internet so when I did get on I would spend hours on it. Then I would pray before I went to bed & call it a night.

Today was my last day of work. It was horrible!!! The day in a whole was horrible!! Well first at 1:00 this morning my cat decides she wants to play. I was so mad. So I throw(place) her in the bathroom & go back to sleep. Well my alarm clock goes off & I turn it off & go back to sleep. Next thing I know my mom comes in & wakes me up. I jump up scared I'm gonna be late for work. Well I get to work & it's crazy!! I was so ready for 9:45 so I could leave & go to the banks open house. Well my mom brought me a different shirt to wear. When i get to the grand opening I'm way underdressed. I'm wearing jeans,tennis shoes, a t-shirt & throw-over, and everyone else is all dressed up. I was Majorly embarresed. Well It takes an hour just for them to do all there speeches & cut the ribbon. I was actually ready to go back to work. well I get there & bathe 2 dogs & then my mom brings me some food(since I didn't eat at the open house). Why I was trying to clean up in the back the new girl calls me to the front & totally frustrates me. That made me mad. Then I finally got everything cleaned up & in order. Then we got busy. At 4:00 I just had the inside kennals clean. I was at the front desk when my dad comes with this box. I ask him what it is & he tells me it's my g-moms cat. She had been ran-over. So we take him back & the vet tells us what was going on & that it would take around 6 months for him to get completely healed up. We didn't want him to be in pain so we decided to put him down. Isn't that the way to end your last day of work? Well I was upset so I went off & watered everything. I was really mad at God & didn't know why he had done that. When I'm down God usually will give me a song that fits my situation. The next thing I know I'm singing "Bring the Rain" by MercyMe. I was like in Aww of what He did. The part where it goes "And though my heart is torn I'll praise You in the rain" was repeating itself in my head. The rest of the day it was just playing in my head. It was amazing!

Well there were two points to this blog. One to tell you what was on my mind. Two to let you know that God is an Awesome God! Never doubt him or think He can't do something. Always stay in a close relationship with him, never lose connections. And always trust Him & He'll guide you through anything.